It has to come out, a good old feel sorry for myself whine. Here goes!
It has been one month 5 days since I found out we are number 1 or 2 on the list for a girl born in Korea. I am tired tired tired of this wait. I am fried. Undone. Emotionally drained. I am wishing I had never told anyone we were adopting because I am so tired of answering the questions about if we have our referral, and when we are going to get it. Blabbler mouth here told everyone we would have our referral in the fall. And I was not crazy, I was told we would. The waits got longer. But it was possible, there is one family that started adopting after us with our agency, and already has their baby home. I was told " the process is averaging sign up to home in 15 months." So, yeah, at almost 13 months of this I figured I would have her sweet little picture.
I try to stay positive, I do. I try to be thankful for all my blessings. And some days, I manage to focus on the positive. But lately, as the 6 month mark waiting gets closer I am anxious. How long are we going to be at the top of the list like this????
Waiting is rough. I am so ready to see my daughter. So ready to have our family complete.
Thanks if you made it this far. I know I do have so many blessings in my life. And I do know it is all in God's timing, and this should be teaching me something. I love you , sweet Leah. And I pray really really hard that soon I will have you for my daughter.
May you live all the days of your life.
--- Jonathan Swift
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