Before we were approved to adopt from South Korea, we had to sign a form saying if I were to become pregnant, we would immediately inform our agency and our adoption would be put on hold, until well after our baby was born. I have always had mixed feelings about this topic, and thought blogging about it would do me good, mostly because I have been having crazy dreams lately I am pregnant. Now, no, we are not trying. Yes, we are taking precautions to see that I don't become pregnant. But, nothing is foolproof, and if I do, what then? There would be a good chance we would never get our child from Korea. That would make me immensely sad, and I would feel a huge amount of conflicting emotions. Just my dreams lately are horrific. Of course I would love the baby I was pregnant with, but in my dreams I am absolutely heartbroken over losing our baby from Korea. Do you understand these rules? On one hand, I can see it. Korea wants the baby you adopt to be the only baby in the home, and I know that baby will need lots of time to bond and adjust to a whole new life. On the other, how does a mother feel when her heart is in love with a baby on the other side of the world, she becomes pregnant, and is forced to have to let that adopted baby go? Talk about stress.
I do know there are some countries and agencies that let a mother continue her adoption if she becomes pregnant. One of these countries is Ethiopia. But not every agency that works with Ethiopia will allow it. I think I am having these dreams because it is always in the back of my mind the type of situation that would be unfathomable. (is that a word?) And I know from talking with our agency it happens, and happens a fair amount.
How do you feel about it? Does your agency or country allow it?
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